Sunday, March 10, 2013

My Life Story in Three Parts

I haven't posted on this blog lately because I've been working on three stand alone pages that tell my life story so far. These pages can be found at the top of this blog. I am writing them from three angles, if  you will, viewing my life. These pages are to provide background and context for things I mean to write about in the future.

"The Outside Story" is an abridged version of my life story from the perspective of me Eliana, the host and original/core self of my collective mind. The "Inside Story" is the same story but from the integrated perspective of my inside parts who lived the abuse that I was amnesic to. The "Spiritual Story" is forthcoming and tells the story of our spiritual journey which in truth is the most important journey of all and gives me the sense of purpose I have that drives me on. Currently I am finished with the first two which can be read by linking on them at the top of this blog or here:

The Outside Story

The Inside Story

Tuesday, January 01, 2013


My life is dark
They say the night is darkest before the dawn
Except I've lost count of how many times someone has said that to me, or how many times I've tried to buoy my despair with that thought.
My life: One solid dark night but with a constant moon.
Sometimes full
Sometimes a sliver
Sometimes absent
But there nonetheless
A constant source of dim light
It doesn't lighten my life but only seems to stand as a far off witness-- a reminder that there is hope, however dim, however far off it may seem.
It is there.
It doesn't illuminate much, only my next footfall.
Maybe that is a reminder to not look further.
Thank you God, for my daily bread
For the light in my night
A promise of things to come.
But like the moon stands apart from the Earth, so I believe my hope lies on another world-- another life.
I've given up on any notion that day will dawn upon the endless night of my life.