Wednesday, March 14, 2012
When it comes to forgiveness, I have exercised this out of sheer obedience to God. He really has broken through to me in very clear ways and has had me do this. The first time was way back in 1992, I think. This was at the beginning of my memories breaking through and I only knew the shadows of what had happened. Still, God led me to a book by Stormie Omartin where I learned of the power of forgiveness for the first time. I learned that doing this is not to let the offender off the hook, but it is to free me to move on. I was so amazed at this insight that I shared it with my husband in the kitchen. Right when we were talking about this there was a knock on the door. It was the mailman delivering a package. The package was from my sister. In it was a lapel pin with a lamb on it and words that said, "Forgiveness heals and renews". There was also a card that said "I was praying the other day and the Holy Spirit told me to tell you to forgive our father." So I prayed forgiveness to my father. I didn't "feel" it. I just did it. I told God I could not do this by myself, but that he needed to make it manifest within me.