Friday, July 31, 2009

Reminder: I have another blog too!

Just letting readers of this blog know that I have another blog called Journey Through The Dark Night. It focuses more on spiritual topics and encouragement for the journey. It has been kind of dormant for a while but I am beginning to do more with it lately and plan to do more. Check it out!

Update May 14, 2011: I'm planning to morph both blogs into one, so plan for posts of the other blog to find their way over here. Stay Tuned.

The Counterfeit Trinity

Truth #1: This "trinity" does not really exist. It's all Satan

Truth #2: The "lightside/darkside" barrier does not really exist.

This is to illustrate how Satan tries to counterfeit and mirror the Trinity of God, Son, and Holy Spirit.

While these spiritual "truths" are not true at all, it is how the Satanic Kingdom presents itself to the human race. There is truly something here for everyone but the bottom line is that it is all enslavement.

There are groups that revolve around each of these aspects of the Satanic trinity. Ritual abuse survivors coming out of these groups commonly have this lightside/darkside dichotomy represented in their minds and internal systems if they are DID.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Once And For All

I used to be so triggered by blood that I shied away from this concept regarding Christ. I think blood trauma was intentional conditioning to keep me away from this connection. I am being healed. It no longer makes me shrink. It brings freedom.

I saw this picture and thought that being wrapped in a glorious and elegant red flowing dress might be a more welcoming picture and concept for survivors of ritual trauma.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Trusting Jesus For Memory Recovery

This set represents an experience I had at the beginning of my memory recovery journey. It was in 1991 and the first memories of abuse were beginning to emerge in fragments. I was agonized over not being able to remember what had happened to me.

Saturday, July 04, 2009


I have found many "legends" inside which each tell a different story about who I am and where I come from. Which one is the real me?

Update May 14, 2011: I have since come to realize that the presence of these "legends" inside are fingerprints, if you will, of being used in government black MKULTRA type programs. The assorted alphabet organizations used children to hone their skills and techniques of training of agents who were to be used in international espionage. These "legends" which are life stories had to be made real for these agents to keep them safe. We were used to perfect those techniques.

True Nature of the Father of Lies

My husband came up with this picture of who Satan really is when he is speaking his threats and lies to us from the shadows. They seem real and scary because we do not see the truth of who he is... The Father of Lies