Monday, May 11, 2009

Living Life Behind My Own Back- Home By The Sea

I've been realizing lately that as a person with a fragmented and externally sculpted identity (I've begun to refer to my disorder as "designer" DID), my insiders (alter selves) have been trying to communicate their plight to me for years. I heard them, but didn't understand the message back then. I just knew I was drawn to certain songs that I listened to over and over because I knew they contained a message to me. Now I am beginning to understand.

One such song is "Home By The Sea" by Genesis. I was drawn to this song way back when I bought the LP record in 1983. Now I understand how it was giving voice to other parts of me trapped in a shadow world and unable to escape. I lived this way for 39 years before finally waking up and leaving the nightmare.

This collage is an image of my life trapped in that reality. It is best viewed while listening to the song that inspired it. I would suggest opening another tab and listening while looking at the collage. [The lyrics follow the collage, below]

Home By The Sea



Creeping up the blind side, shinning up the wall
Stealing thru the dark of night
Climbing thru a window, stepping to the floor
Checking to the left and the right
Picking up the pieces, putting them away
Something doesnt feel quite right


Help me someone, let me out of here
Then out of the dark was suddenly heard
Welcome to the home by the sea

Coming out the woodwork, thru the open door
Pushing from above and below
Shadows but no substance, in the shape of men
Round and down and sideways they go
Adrift without direction, eyes that hold despair
Then as one they sign and they moan

Help us someone, let us out of here
Living here so long undisturbed
Dreaming of the time we were free
So many years ago
Before the time when we first heard
Welcome to the home by the sea

Sit down sit down
Sit down sit down sit down
As we relive our lives in what we tell you

Images of sorrow, pictures of delight
Things that go to make up a life
Endless days of summer longer nights of gloom
Waiting for the morning light
Scenes of unimportance, photos in a frame
Things that go to make up a life

Help us someone, let us out of here
Cos living here so long undisturbed
Dreaming of the time we were free
So many years ago
Before the time when we first heard
Welcome to the home by the sea

Sit down sit down
Sit down sit down sit down sit down
As we relive out lives in what we tell you
Let us relive out lives in what we tell you

Sit down sit down sit down
Cos you wont get away
No with us you will stay
For the rest of your days - sit down
As we relive our lives in what we tell you
Let us relive our lives in what we tell you

1 comment:

Shamai said...

You've always had such a talent for finding songs that expressed what needed to be said/heard. This one is really great. Thanks!