Saturday, December 20, 2008

Trauma and Recovery: Read It Now On Questia

Questia is the first online library that provides 24/7 access to the world's largest online collection of books and journal articles in the humanities and social sciences, plus magazine and newspaper articles. You can search each and every word of all of the books and journal articles in the collection. You can read every title cover to cover.

Now you can read Judith Herman's landmark book, "Trauma and Recovery" in it's entirety on Questia. First published in 1992, this book has become a classic in the field of trauma recovery. An excerpt from this groundbreaking book is reproduced here:

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Smart-Talks- Stop Ritual Abuse and Mind Control Today

You can now listen to or download the SMART conference presentations online here. I attended the conference this year and found it to be of such value. I wanted others who could not attend to be able to hear and grow from these presentations also.

Dare to be Aware!

CDs Available of Presentations from the 2008 SMART Conference

CD Order Form for The Eleventh Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations
and Mind Control Conference - 2008

Ritual Abuse Conference 2008

Some of the topics discussed on these CDs may be very triggering. These CDs are educational and not intended as therapy or treatment. Statements made on these CDs are the speaker's own statements only and don't necessarily represent the policies or views of conference sponsors, cosponsor, speakers,exhibitors or organizers.
Speaker descriptions will follow ordering information.

1) Neil Brick - "Debating the nonbelievers. Getting equal time for survivors' views."

2) Eileen Schrader - "Programming and Beyond --the obvious and subtler effects of
mind control in survivors of RA/MC."

3) Wanda Karriker, PhD - "Voice, Visibility, and Validation for Survivors. Highlights of the Extreme Abuse Survey Trilogy."

4) Thorsten Becker - "Ideologically Motivated Crimes - Ritual Abuse in a different perspective, reflected on by data from a series of survey on extreme abuse."

5) Jennie P. - "From Despair to Joy, One Survivor's Journey."

6) Dr. Katherine Glenn - "One Therapist's Introduction to the World of Mind Control."

7) Leslie - "Triumph Over A History of Ritual Abuse and Mind Control"

8) Mary Keats RN BA - "Children of Survivors - Successes and Challenges"

9) Joanne - "Breaking the Addiction of Dissociation"

10) Lowell Routley - "Am I "Real Me" or Am I "Memorex, y, z"? "

11) Hal Pepinsky - "Weighing and Responding to Evidence of Abuse"

CDs are approximately 60 minutes long. CDs are $12 each. Shipping and Handling
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With shipping and handling: US Price - all CDs - $130, Canada price - all CDs - $135

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Speakers and Biographies

Please note: Listing of these speakers does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are speaking at our conference for educational value only and some may be heavy for survivors. Listening to the speakers at the conference may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when listening to any speaker or contacting any resource mentioned in this brochure. These descriptions may be
heavy for survivors to read. Please use caution while reading.

Neil Brick is a survivor of alleged Masonic Ritual Abuse and MK-ULTRA. He is the editor of S.M.A.R.T. - A Ritual Abuse newsletter. His topic is: "Debating the nonbelievers. Getting equal time for
survivors' views."

A retired psychologist, Wanda Karriker, PhD, wrote the novel, "Morning, Come Quickly," to share what she has learned about the aftereffects of RA/MC. In advocacy for survivors, she has appeared on CourtTV and in 2007 presented papers at a UN conference for women and at the ISSTD conference in Philadelphia. Her topic is: "Voice, Visibility, and Validation for Survivors. Highlights of the Extreme Abuse Survey Trilogy."

Joanne is a survivor of RA, family and
government mind control and medical experimentation She has been working on recovery for 14 years and has been instrumental in helping her three dissociative children heal. She leads a life as an active professional in her chosen field in her
community. Her topic is: "Breaking the Addiction of Dissociation."

Lowell Routley is a therapist in the Midwest who helps survivors of extreme trauma. Lowell has listened to survivors to find what works, what doesn't and why. As director of Heartland Initiative, he actively trains therapists and consults with client and therapist to resolve impasses in healing. His topic is " Am I "Real Me" or Am I "Memorex, y, z"? "

Jennie P. is a lawyer, a librarian, and a poet, presently working as a contractor in the biotech industry while completing her first book, "Happy Girl: From the Basements to the Rooftops, A Memoir and Guide to Healing From Trauma." After years of struggle, she has successfully healed from satanic ritual abuse. Her topic is: "From Despair to Joy, One Survivor's Journey."

Mary Keats RN BA wife, mother, grandmother, working in social services, is a survivor of Ritual Abuse Torture. She is a spiritual person who enjoys life to the fullest. Her energy and enthusiasm are infectious. She refuses to be muzzled, decided early on in her recovery to break the silence, so others could be helped. Recently, she has published an article on "Healing from SRA" in the journal Sharing. Her topic is "Children of Survivors-Successes and Challenges"

Thorsten Becker is a social worker who lives in Lueneburg, Germany. From 1984 until March 2000, he was a counselor on cult-related problems. Since then, freelancing as a supervisor and case-consultant/manager for therapists, social workers and investigators, he has specialized in issues of ritual violence. In 1994, he was awarded the German Child Protection Award for his work with ritually abused children. His website is His topic is : "Ideologically Motivated Crimes - Ritual Abuse in a different perspective, reflected on by data from a series of survey on extreme abuse."

Hal Pepinsky - Since the fall of 1993, Hal has as far as he knows been the only university professor to bring more than one ra/mc survivor to his classes. Hal has taught criminal justice for 37 years.
Surviving ritual abuse and mind control has become a foundation for his larger thinking on what he calls "peacemaking," establishing safe relations in the face of violence. His topic is: "Weighing and Responding to Evidence of Abuse."

Eileen Schrader is a therapist and a survivor of RA/MC, who has the privilege of treating fellow survivors. She wants all survivors to live the best lives possible, and has advocated for them at the United Nations. She is grateful to her husband, Henry, for his humor and dedication. Her topic is "Programming and Beyond --the obvious and subtler effects of mind control in survivors of RA/MC."

Dr. Katherine Glenn is a Licensed Professional Counselor and Licensed Clinical Addictions Specialist in private practice in Greensboro, North Carolina. She specializes in trauma and addictions, and belongs to the International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation, the International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies, and RA Survivor Support. She has worked with survivors for 16 years. Her topic is "One Therapist's Introduction to the World of Mind Control."

Leslie was born in 1954 in Detroit, Michigan. She was raised in a multigenerational cult and used in mind control training.
Desperately struggling with the effects of traumatization all her my life, she finally found help that has transformed her life. Her topic is: "Triumph Over A History of Ritual Abuse and Mind Control."

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Organizing to Fight the Reality of Extreme Abuse

Personal survivor reflections of attending the annual SMART conference. This is an organization dedicated to fighting the reality of ritual abuse and mind control.

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

The Betrayer

What should I write on this blog anymore? I realize that anything I say can and will be used against me. I realize that over and over people I trusted have betrayed me. This has become normal fact of life.

The Betrayer
You acted so righteous.
You acted so pious.
You really played the part well, didn't you?
You really had them all fooled, didn't you?
Even me.

Fooled no more.
Used again.
Trust has died.
Never to be resurrected.

Truth is a lie agreed upon.
We really agreed, didn't we?
Where was truth?
In a putrid cesspool of lies.

I was a pawn in little men's crusades.
Wearing a blindfold, I trusted.
Checkmated again.
But I play the game no more.

Nothing is as it seems.
No one is as they seem.
They all have their dark agendas,
Behind their fake smiles
And their empty encouragement.

You saw yourself as a savior.
You were nothing but another robber.
A soul robber.
A trickster behind smiling eyes.

You are not unique.
You only walked the well worn paths
Trod upon by so many others who have gone before.
You trod upon the muddy and rutted paths of my soul.
Same exploitation, different style.

Double-minded, double-life
You wear a clever mask.
Hiding behind your eccentricity and your 'Christian' love.
How righteous you are!

A carpetbagger is what you are.
A recycled perpetrator.
Same tune, another song.
You have infected my soul with a sickness.

I will find a way through this because I know.
I will walk in the light.
I will find truth.
Will you stay in the darkness?

I will remember.
I will learn.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.

Shame on you.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Sexual Slavery Abroad and at Home

Slaves to the Goddess of Fertility

In southern India, " devadasis" are literally slaves of the goddess. When girls dedicated to Yellama reach puberty they are forced to sacrifice their virginity to an older man. What follows is a life of sexual slavery, they become sanctified prostitutes.

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A "Foreign" Phenomena?

It is a safe bet that the majority of Americans reading the above story would be understandably empathetic and outraged at the plight of these girls and women half a world away. But would anyone doubt that this is taking place? How many Americans reading this article would question the actual veracity of the testimony of these unfortunates?